Sunday, May 31, 2009

Calmness, Insanity, Music.

Oh...

ever just sat there in your room
in the dark and listen to some sweet tunes
and think, drift off, into the surrounding world.
It used to be my favorite thing to do if i wasnt partying
in my case some nice melodic indie tune
or something like it would put me in that state
a state of excellence
just lying down on the floor
surround sound softly pulsing the music
ohh... I remember when I could do that
I wish I could now
but I cant
reason why is because I need to get
a new surround sound system
and also a new mp3
gosh life sucks
when your on summer break and aint working
but... there are some benefits like
catching up with friends, and finding new music,
maybe even making some new friends.
music to me is basically everything
I think it controls me
and it kind of puts me in an emotive kind of state
where the music makes me really moody
in most cases extreamly content with everything
even when there is shit that
is really troublesome and bothersome in life
I find that it is my cure to hating everythingand everyone
and also
it saves me from insanity (truly it does)
the last time I almost went insane was the 4 months before school
not being able to get a job
I just stayed at home
played games all day everyday
slowly wasting away
I became nocturnal, I was like a bat
sleeping at 6 a.m. and waking at 6 p.m.
and I fell ill, had the most scariest and darkest of dreams everyday
just thinking that I was actually in them
I became paranoid, and I slept even more than usual
it was a really, extremely odd sickness that thrust my
psychi into chaos.
the thing that brought me back was actually
comics, books and of course
sweet music.
thank god for it, otherwise I would be in an asylum
I noticed that I have never even told my parents of this
well they will find out soon... maybe
I like to keep secrets.


[kawaii=sweet]

9 comments:

Vison.Air.y said...

heh i do the same thing alot bro. When i'm not out doing something i'm always listening to music in a dimly lit room. I love to put on what i like to call "mood music" (i.e. 808s & Heartbreak or "The Calm" by Drake) and just let my mind race.
I can completely emphathize with you bro, without music I would be in a dark place. I've been in a similar situation where I slept all day and just pretty much wasted my life away. I really hope things get better for you soon bro.

Jinmi.....Indie said...

lol
yeah but thats what happened about 5 months ago
now im cool though

SimplyAin said...

I KNEW IT!!!

all that dark talk and crap, depression sucks

Jinmi, dont make me have to purchase a two way ticket to the uk this summer please, just ait until ummmm 2011???


remeber this:
@(o.o)@ @(T.T)@ and all the others i just liked the monkeys the best

btw, you are slacking on giving me a ipod list, the last time was before your plung into the dark depths of your mind. now that you see the light again I WANT MY DAMN MUSIC!!! the profile song is f'in G (g as in great not gangsta)so now i will just keep yoir blog open to listen to the sound of it. i guess that means i come here for the music not you, sorry buddy

this is a pretty long comment thingy, but whatever. it should be a post on my blog maybe? o.o (copy and paste?)

i will shut up now, hope you ad fun reading this =p

p.s.
word for verification is "heflas". when i read it the voice of a slave said "look pah, heflas!" (he flies?)

is something really wrong with me?

Jinmi.....Indie said...

ROTFLMAO

Jinmi.....Indie said...

Ain u will get your music dont worry

SimplyAin said...

better!

i have been listening to puliing our weight all day

the word verification thing is illetrate

lader=ladder stupid thing T.T

Jinmi.....Indie said...

hahah i know
i gor AFROG
the other day

Unknown said...

you should sleep more often! lol

Jinmi.....Indie said...

never mano
never